First Anniversary

Really eager to write up about our First wedding anniversary at December 1st. But just couldnt get time to write it up, busy preparing all stuffs and mental for our First baby...

For My Hubby and Me...
Happy first anniversary
May Allah always blesses our marriage
Pouring us with His love
having sakinah mawaddah warrahmah family

I would never forget
First time we met on airport, 28 November 2004.
our nikah day, First December 2004
Our wedding reception in Jakarta, 5th December 2004
Our honeymoon in KL, tweenty First-25th December 2004
My First day in Karachi, 25th December 2004
Our Walimah in Karachi, 23rd January 2005
And This First wedding Anniversary, First December 2005
And coming soon our First baby, (InshaAllah this December)

May Allah be with our family always

Alhamdulillah

Just today, feel so much free from tireness of heart. Alhamdulillah finally I heard a good news come from the doctor. Since first check up of my pregnancy, every body around me had judged that I will have Section-C... due to my size... ( Does Size Matter????)...

I'm just a normal Indonesian woman with everage size... 150cm (cukuplah... ga terlalu kecil banget khan?)... What they expected from me? That I have 60 KGs on my pregnancy??? (can u imagine how would I look like... Yeah.. Ball... ---> Bisa-bisa gelinding sekali senggol)...

Yeah.. Since I reach here... I couldn't put my weight on... well it's not because i dont like the food here... its was difficult for me to change all habits from a working woman to a Wife, which I have to cook my own food (Gee... I never cooked before...).

I start with 38KGs... before pregnant... then alhamdulillah now I'm 48KGs, (Normal is 10-18KGs)...

Then few weeks back Docter told me that the position of the baby was not proper to have normal. Then they more sure that I should go for Section-C...

Again and again they keep telling me about this... that I'm too small, and the position is not right... more thing that the baby is too active so the heartbeats is also too fast... (which is not good... they say).

Alhamdulillah, I pray to my God, and I believe him soo much so everytime I feel depress after hearing those words I just leave it to Allah. I belive that HE won't let the difficulties come over me... I took a deep breath, and just praying that HE will give me the best.. whatever it is.

Just today, I had my check-up... I came without complaints about my pregnancy... she checked me, and she said the baby's position has changed and I have chance to have normal delivery... (ALHAMDULILLAH), She said that we can wait for the due date which is around 22 December or 23 December

One more thing, Now I feel more relax than before... when I put my weight on for 10KGs and its normal... I believe my baby will have a normal weight too... InshaAllah

And... Said to myself... keep prays on and believe that Allah won't let us down...

Always good news

Next trip will be Singapore for my Hubby, That's a good news right. Its not even one month he joins this Company, so for his orientation he needs to go to Singapore.

Its postponed... More good news for me :D..

Cos I want him to see the baby before leaving for Singapore, at least 1 month, So his trip postponed. well its not cos of me, there will be IT exhibition here in Pakistan.

BUt you know! Du'a from a prangnant women is mustajab :)... I wasnt really du'a that his trip will be postponed, but just a hope that better for him to see the baby first.

All the things in my Du'a is just for the best life here and after. And I know... its must be the best!

Baby brings luck

Its True...

its happened to me, since the day I knew I carry a baby in my womb, day by day there always a good thing comes in my life.

latest good thing is, My husband got a new job as a Marketing Manager for Imation Pakistan...

Which is it, of the favors of your Lord, that ye deny?

Dedicated Blog

New lay out!!!

We have room for our little Zuberi in our house

What makes you think "I'm in Love"

Do you really believe in Love? or you just pretend of being in love. Have you ever love someone so deep, so you cant even far from him/her even a second.

Believe me, I do believe in love, I cant even live without it.

When I lost it, I couldnt let it go, its not in my eyes but it keeps in my heart.

frankly, its true to say, that even you lost it you never really really lost it, its just hidden from your eyes but actually its in your heart. That is love.

So what makes you think "I'm in Love"

for me, what makes me think "I'm in Love" is What my heart says "I'm in Love"


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Like my heart says "I'm in Love with my Hubby"
Like my heart tells "I want to be with him forever"
Like Your heart comments on my Love... "how lucky this guy"

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My First Magazine for Mensa Pakistan

Mensa, worldwide high IQ Society, is a very reknown organization all over the world in 100 countries including Indonesia and Pakistan.

While I was in Indonesia, I dont even know what is mensa and I dont really care about. But I found a very different here, as mensa Pakistan is a a very active organisation,

My husband is a chairman of mensa pakistan, so I know what they have done so far. Now they has just start a professional Magazine, and I join as a Graphic designer.

Alhamdulillah, it's not too bad, though for me its fantastic, one of my dream to work from home. And Alhamdulillah I got positive responds of my design from some people.

Though in some pages there's something missing like logo in the cover page, well nobody's perfect, even a magazine :D

Next time better!!!

Being a Mom

It's a wonderful life of being mother, the way you're passing your time and the way you're sleeping at night. it's a blessed gift that you're contiunuously thanking to God.

though it's hard for you to bend, or completely unable to wake up, so you need your husband to lift you up, but It's more like pleasure moments that everywomen wanted. Or even when the baby kicks you, He/She jumps arround, makes some acrobatic movements that make you feel the pain, you won't take it as torture, moreover you'll feel lonely when He/She fall to sleep in His/Her royal bed.

Long periode of pragnancy, seems to be short episode of our life. and it's just the truth when you see yor baby's face.

Still few months to go for me, but I'm so excited that I couldnt wait to see him/her. What's on my mind is only about him/her. Oneday my husband tried to describe his/her face, He imagined that the baby would have face like him with my eyes... hmm obviously without beard :)

Along with it I more conscious about my foods cos I have little problem with my weight. I keep discussing with some friends who have good experiences, so many things that I can learn from them. This periode is so depressed, there's so many things that I have to prepare, Discussing with positive friends and doctor is a must. I keep my self busy though sometimes I felt bore. But Alhamdulillah I have such a good husband.

Still 3 months to go... it will takes more attention, as I will feel more get tired on my back along with increasing my weight, I hope. Most important thing is the baby's weight should be according to the normal baby (whether it's pakistani baby's weight or Indonesian :> ). I read in some articles, that a baby with underweight will have low IQ... I pray to Allah that the baby will have good personalities as good as intelligencies.

indonesian meeting in wisma indonesia-khi

Consulate general of republic Indonesia, Karachi.
Today is a special day for Ibu Konjen of Karachi, today she celebrates her return day and also kinda farewell party of her and her husband.

A good thing of meeting indonesian people here in karachi that u can talk in Bahasa Indonesia and also have indonesian food. They also sell some of indonesian food, so I bought tempe, emping, saos pedes, and mie goreng... (hehehe... senengnyeee....)
got kecap manis and rengginang from my friend (makasih tutut...) and took asinan, skotel and rendang from the table (as usual, i did everywhere, we all did hehehe...) kue putri salju castangles, and sponge cake :P~ (berasa pesta sendiri. maap yeeh ga bagi-2...)

right now i m having asinan then skotel (ngiler ga?)

its been 3 days that i eat indonesian food that i brought from last saturday sports day held in Agha Khan University Hospital, next july 23rd there will a sports day for kids too. This events are redarding to Indonesian national day nex 17th August.

i just cant wait to attend "UPACARA" (setelah lulus SMU, kangen juga ternyata sama upacara, masih inget ga yah lagu kebangsaan).

thing is, there's alot of indonesian food... yeah eat...eat..eat...

a courage to write!

whatta tittle??? the only way to figure it out is to keep ur window open not only that but also read it.

Its been along time i wanted to show my feeling how being far from homeland,which i never dreamt before. though so many times i went out with my friends traveling out of the city, for few days. yeah! that the key, OUT OF CITY and FEW DAYS.

The thing is now i'm out of country not only few days.

can't say the hardest thing in my life, cos this is only one episode in one long drama, which i would understand when life turned off.
Keeping memories about jakarta become my favorite pleasure, in a very first day, i wasn't really missing much about all the thing from indonesia, then come the second month, third and so on, start missing my family one by one, my cute nieces Aisha and Amirah, then my idols Bapak and Ibu.

i admitted that far from home is not that easy, mostly when u live with a new persons who u never really know before, seemed to be like "English man in New york" (changed tittle "Jakarta girl in Karachi") good thing about that english man is he can understand whole conversation cos american also speak the same. My case is very different, i dont even have any idea what were they saying. this makes me down and feels more lonely. God knows how i felt whole day. days r so worst and nights r a nightmare, and the only good time is when i sleep, cos thru the dream i talk in bahasa, and meet all my family and friends. i'm not trying to exaggerated but for few days i found my self cried while sleeping... hoooo how bad... but that's true and now i have courages to write it up on this blog.

Now, when days go by, and life has turn to be easy, i ajusted very quickly (i hope...) its my 6th month here, and also forth month of my pregnancy. now i m just enjoying my days of becoming mother soon. being a good wife trying and trying, couldn't stop of trying cos every day is a new day that we never predict how to solve it. And anyhow... i have one day every month to meet indonesian women at KJRI, i can talk in bahasa and also eat indonesian food.

see.. missing family is something but to make it up is a good thing....

Ganti layout...

Maonya ga pake pict tapi lagi suka theater kabuki... dan suka segala yang berbau jepang... terus aku juga coba nge redirect blog ini ke http://t.i-t-i.org.. kliatannya aneh ga...

Lion and Shyness

Once a man was crossing a forest where he heard the roar of a lion, so he climed up the tree. The lion came searching ground near him and then went away. The man came down and saw another man resting along the tree. He asked The man why he dint fear the lionand hide from it. Then the man replied, I would be shy of Allah SWT to fear anything other than HIM.

Krisis Identitas sebagai muslim????


Hari terus berganti, dulu aku meyakini apa yang pernah aku jalani adalah benar... namun tidak sekarang... saat itu mungkin ku anggap benar karena kapasitasku saat itu baru sampai titik tersebut, ini bukan sebuah tingkat menjadi lebih tinggi namun kini meluas. Sehingga untuk mencapai tingkat yakin aku harus punya kapasitas yang luas.

Aku sesungguhnya tak kuasa melihat maraknya blog saat ini, mereka dengan bangganya menceritakan aib orang lain, atau membuka aib sendiri, berbangga-bangga atas diri sendiri (astagfirullah... kadang akupun begitu) mengecam orang lain, berkelakar tak ubahnya pelawak diatas panggung.

aku sedih... ada lah yang menempatkan ayat dalam qur'an kemudian table berikutnya lagu cinta, atau dengan bangganya posting tentang menghadiri konser kelompok musik...
dulu aku fikir tak mengapalah mereka melakukan itu, toh bukan aku.

tapi tidak sekarang... aku merasa saat ini umat islam sedang krisis identitas, mereka merasa telah menjadi bagian dari masyarakat international yang berkiblat ke barat... namun tetap menghadapkan wajah ke ka'bah... yang aku sadari sekarang umat islam mengalami kebingungan karena serangan Ghozwul fikri yang bertubi-tubi sadar atau tidak...

Harus ada yang mengingatkan... karena Addien ^un-nashihah... agama adalah nasihat... awal hukum muamalah adalah boleh selama ia tidak diharamkan, dan didunia maya ini maraknya blog boleh-2 saja... namun bila sudah memberi kesan miring tentang umat islam apakah menjadi boleh???

dan kemudian Musuh Allah kini terbahak-bahak karena mereka berhasil menjadikan agama hanya sebagai sesuatu yang ditinggi-tinggikan namun tidak dijalankan... menjadikan Alquran sebagai hiasan semata... "Na'udzubillahi mindzalik"

Bahkan "Ajakan menuju kebaikan" dianggap sebagai suatu yang berlebihan... fanatisme... oleh sebagian umat sendiri...

Akankah kita biarkan saudara-2 kita terjerembab pada lubang yang dalam???

Salman Al Farisi. Ra...
(lagi-lagi Judge the book by its cover... )


Salman Al Farisi Radhiallahu anhu, one of shahabah of prophet Salallahu'alaihi wassalam from Farsi was a gorvernor of Madinah. One day he was walking in the market, suddenly a stranger called him to carry his load, without say anything nor angry he carried the load and follow behind that stranger. Just because Salman Al Farisi (ra) was wearing a veryu simple dress, That stranger thought that he must be a poor person who needs money.

But then when People of Madinah saw what was happening, they cried out and said...

+ "Allah have mercy on you Amirul mukminin!"

+ "Here, let us carry the laod for u"

The Stranger was shocked when he found out. the person with simply dress he asked to carried his load is Amirul mukminin and apologized, he immediately took the back from Salman Al Farisi (ra)

But Salman Al Farisi (ra) refused and said;

+ "Dont worry"

+ "Lets Carry on"

Then he keep carrying the load until the door of that stranger's house without feeling embarrassed. Since then he promise to himself to always carry his burden himself.

_____LESSON
:: Sometimes we judged and treated people according to what we see, then we put Physical performance become #1 in our mind, followed by demanding to people around us to pay attention on these, and it becomes like a virus, everybody think the same...

and people will start saying "what would people say if i did this and that..."
some people start satisfying other by doing wht people around wants...

Whenever this virus comes to our mind... Say, Indeed my prayers, my obidiences, my life and my death is only for ALLAH.

To All Man
(Tidak semua laki-laki)

Today... i online very early and i found my old friend... we met in forum, so glad and exciting, cos now she got one of her obsessions... not much we talked, i realized i shouldnt much ask abt personal.

I entered her heart and asked her abt her destination, where she would tied up her heart. then she proudly said
+ "I dont need Man"

+ "They all just want to have a beatiful and rich wife... and I'm NOT that one"

+ "I always live in poverty"

+ "I always met these kind of men"

+ "soulmate is not only in here"

+ "I intend to not get married"

+ "I'm not depending on man"

+ "I only need Allah"


and these are the question for men...

+ "Is it right that man look for beautful and rich girl?"

+ "When women asked for equality then men also do the same... isn't it?"



Note: I depressly talked to her...Cos Everytime I try to convince her ... her reply always "I insist with my principle"....please make du'a for her... May Allah Guide her... Amiin.

I m Here

I m Here, I m Here, I m Here, I m Here